Billie Eilish has taken aim at body-shamers and the way they “judge” her during a previously unreleased, self-produced short film called Not My Responsibility.
At the start of the three-minute, 40-second feature — which dropped unexpectedly on May 26 — the person singer is seen fully clothed and hooded as she stands alone during a dark room.
Backed by an unfamiliar and eerie electronic composition — almost like that of the work produced by her older brother Finneas — Eilish proceeds to recite a particularly personal passage about body image and the way she’s been perceived across social media just because of the way she looks.
“Do you recognize me?” she asks the viewer.
As she begins to unzip her hoodie within the video, the 18-year-old continues: “You have opinions about my opinions, my music, my clothes (and) my body.”
“Some people hate what I wear, some praise it,” she adds. “Some use it to shame others, some use it to shame me. But I feel you watching, always, and zip I do goes unseen.”
Eilish’s message intensifies as she strips down even further and slowly submerges into a dark pool of water — which is additionally like the black liquid seen within the music video for her critically acclaimed 2018 single When the Party’s Over.
“While I feel your stares, your disapproval, or your sigh of relief … If I lived by them, I’d never be ready to move,” she said.
“If I wear what’s comfortable, i’m not a lady . If I shed the layers, I’m a slut.
“Though you’ve never seen my body, you continue to judge it and judge me for it.”“Why?” she asks. “We make assumptions about people supported their size. We decide who they’re .”
Despite the very fact that she only turned 18 in December, Eilish has said that also as being body-shamed, she’s been heavily “sexualized” across the web .
During an interview with Dazed last month, the five-time Grammy winner recounted a selected example of being “slut”-shamed after posting a photograph of herself and a lover to Instagram earlier this year during which she was wearing a showering suit.
“I saw comments like, ‘How dare she mention not eager to be sexualized and wear this?!’” said Eilish. “It was trending.
“There were comments like, ‘I don’t like her anymore because as soon as she turns 18, she’s a whore.’ Like, dude. I can’t win. I cannot win.”
Eilish later admitted to the outlet that the critique came to some extent where she “was naked and didn’t recognize (her) body” because she “hadn’t seen it during a while” after covering it up all the time in her signature bright and baggy attire.
“I would see it sometimes and be like, ‘Whose body is that?’” she said.
ilish seemingly alludes to a number of these instances in Not My Responsibility. At one point, she asks, “Do my shoulders provoke you? Does my chest?”
She concludes with two additional questions: “Is my value-based only on your perception? Or is your opinion of me not my responsibility?”
According to the video’s description, Not My Responsibility was initially intended to be “seen on the road .” Before being released officially on Tuesday, it actually premiered at one among her shows in Miami, Fla., on March 9.
The North American Where can we Go? the tour was postponed days later, however, as a result of the continued COVID-19 pandemic, meaning that the short wasn’t seen again until earlier in the week.